Llamatorium

My Birthday. It always invokes such emotional response from my inner voices. With this birthday coming in a week, all I want is for things to move toward a goal. This requires quite an upheaval in our lives.

First and foremost, it requires us to find jobs in Milwaukee. Dave and I are both smart, hardworking people, but the economy sucks and we're jumping into the employment pool head first. The water is quite cold, but we remain confident.

Since we're looking for jobs, it is comprehendable that one of us may find one, which would mean moving to Milwaukee in a short period of time. Looking around this house makes me want to cry at the thought of throwing everything haphazardly into boxes and racing out there. We have alot of stuff. We've decided that we need to start going through our things and maybe even packing up a little for what is to come.

I truely believe we are making the right decision. I adore my friends here in Boston, but I am just not happy in Boston anymore. This isnt where I want to be. The price of housing alone is enough to drive me straight out of this city. It is very expensive to live here. We make a decent living, pretty damn good, I'd say good enough to buy a house and raise a family, but only if we lived somewhere else.

Now that we've made the decision, I'm impatient. It is no secret that I really hate my job. I get physically ill going in to the office. Coming from a job I loved (for the most part), this is pretty hard on me. My life and my husband are wonderful, my job is the blackness that seems to shroud everything else (and this is from someone who really loves to work). All I can do is recite my mantra of "soon it will be over".

We're looking forward to getting new jobs and moving toward the future.. you'll just have to bear with my frustration for now.

Tonight for my birthday, we had Ethiopian food with a bunch of friends and then went to the local drag show. It was alot of fun. I really have amazing friends.. and of course, an amazing husband!

I'm excited for this year. I think that there will be alot of great changes for Dave and I and I'm looking forward to everything we will accomplish!

Sorry so short.. but it is late and the bed is calling my name!

So I did it. I cut off my hair. It is a little shorter than shoulder length and I love it! It feels really strange having short hair.. well short for me anyway. I keep reaching up to touch it and it is just.. short.

I have managed to change my name almost everywhere I needed to. Just a couple things left and then everything will be in my new, really long, hyphenated name. I had to sign my new signature a few times for my bank account today and I'm just still not used to it. It's long.

I found a posting for a job I really really want. I applied for it through their website and sent in a hard copy. This job is right up my alley and I really hope they contact me. The job search is frustrating, but when you see a job that should absolutely be yours, it is even more so. **fingers crossed**

It is painfully cold outside. So cold that my tiny office with no insulation couldnt heat up. It was a balmy 50 degrees in there. It should be illegal to work in those conditions. I was wearing my gloves inside.. but luckily we left early.

I'm off to see what I'm going to cook for dinner tonight for my husband!

I took a chance today. I really want to be considered for that job at Potawatomi. I got on the phone and did a little sleuth work and found out the name of the current person in that job, and the job is being vacated because he is being promoted. Because I was able to get his name, I was able to figure out his email address by using the formula for the other email addresses for office positions at Potawatomi.
I emailed him my cover letter and resume.
I really hope this helps to get my resume in the right hands. I really really want this and I am completely qualified for it.

Keep your fingers crossed for me.

Well some of my sleuth work has been useful. Today I got a call from someone at Potawatomi.. not the person I needed, but someone willing to help me. He forwarded my email to the GM and the hiring manager and gave me the direct phone number to the hiring manager. I'm hoping that I get to speak to someone soon, I'm ready to fly to Milwaukee for an interview. I dont want to be a pest, but I dont want to be passed over either. I hope I'm pursuing this in a non-offensive manner. I also have a potential interview with someone else for a completely different job, but I'll know about that in a day or two.

Dave and I didnt have any hot water for 4 days. We were quite pleased when they came to give us a working water heater yesterday. We were finally able to wash our dishes and clothes and shower in our own shower. Luckily our friend Beth let us go to her place to shower.

We went to see Gomez, one of my favorite bands, on Monday night. I rarely go to shows anymore, but they are special. I really enjoy seeing them and have never been dissapointed. They only come around every few years, I am grateful to my husband for buying the tickets for me.

Here's to hoping there is a ticket to Milwaukee in my near future.

So I have three meetings in Milwaukee. I'm flying there on Thursday and will be there through Tuesday. These three meetings do not include anything with Potawatomi.. but I'm working on that. The worst part will be being away from my husband for 6 days. We havent been apart for any length of time in two years. I'm not fond of being away from him.

I sat my boss down and told her what was going on. She was actually (surprisingly) very supportive. How can you really argue with people who want to take steps to move forward in their lives? I was very nervous about telling her, but it all turned out ok. I'm feeling much calmer just knowing everything is out in the open about Dave and I (hopefully) moving to Milwaukee.

Saturday. Its a work day for me. I still work 6 days a week. I hate that. It would be different if it was a job I liked.

Off to work I go....

I leave in the morning for Milwaukee. I have an interview tomorrow at 3:30 and some phone calls to make to set times for at least two other things. I am excited. Nervous. Worried. Anticipatory. Impatient. This is a big change. A change that both Dave and I want. I want Dave to be happy and excited to get a new job. Of course I also want him to find something great, in his field. We both agree that taking a step down to go forward is not the right thing to do. My fingers are crossed for the both of us.

Being away from Dave for five days is going to be brutal.

Work at the rental mines has picked up a tiny bit, meaning I've made a little bit of money for the first time in a month and a half. That stretch was brutal, luckily I was prepared for it. Seems as though the drought may be getting better over there. I still cant wait to not have that job anymore.

I've packed my bags. Got my ativan for flying. The only thing I'll be missing is my wonderful husband.