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April 25, 2006

Well Dang...

A huge thanks to all who have sent their congratulations and well-wishes after Alex's birth. It is very much appreciated! I had really hoped to be able to blog more about these first weeks of parenthood, but it's amazing how difficult it's been to get near the computer for more than a minute or two at a time. Let me also apologize for all of the emails that I've so far failed to return. I really do want to right back to you all, and will as soon as I can.

Alexander is one month old today! He's really an amazing little kid and his Mom and I are completely smitten with him... which is a good thing, because right now he's also being a challenge. It's certainly not his fault. The poor kid has been through a lot in the last week or so. He seemed to be having horrible gas pains. We've adjusted his diet and added some gripe water and that seemed to be helping... then he went in for surgery to correct a problem that was discovered shortly after birth. We can tell that his recovery is making him really uncomfortable. How can we tell? He screams like a maniac about 12 hours a day, and doesn't seem terribly happy about anything the other twelve. Our pediatrician says we can up his pain medication a bit and see if that helps. Hopefully that will make a difference. They say that babies recover from this kind of thing very quickly, so maybe he'll be more comfortable in a few days. There is nothing more heartbreaking than having your beautiful new baby howling and screaming and having no idea how to make it better.

I'm back at work now... which feels way to soon. Things are busy in the bookmines, and I'm doing the best I can to cope while suffering from sleep deprivation. I'd much rather be home with Liz and the baby. I feel guilty for being here, instead of home helping my wife and child deal with this difficult period. I know that I don't really have a choice, but that doesn't make it easier.

With all that said, I love being a father. Watching this little guy grow and change and get a little more engaged in the world everyday is just about the coolest thing ever. I don't even mind (and even sometimes find it weirdly charming) when he spits up or pisses on me. We find ourselves cheering him on when he burps, farts, and poops. As his vision gets better, we can see him noticing things and trying to interact with them. Everything he does is weirdly breathtaking.

April 27, 2006

Sleep Deprivation and the Grim Meathook Future

Sleep deprivation is turning me into a boring conversationalist... While I've got just enough energy to hold things together at work and still do a competent job, my brain just doesn't seem to have enough juice these days for casual conversation. It's very very weird. I can talk about job specs and file processing procedures and make sense. If I try to have a conversation with a friend about something I saw on TV last night, my words start to slur together (or drop consonants) and I lose my train of thought. Hopefully my friends will give me the benefit of the doubt for the next couple of months.

I've never been someone who functioned well with anything less than 6 solid continuos hours of sleep. Eight is optimum, seven is pretty good, six is doable. Even a minute less and my brain starts making sacrifices. It is only because my amazing wife takes the majority of the night feedings that I'm coherent at all. They say your body adjusts to the lack of sleep demanded by an infant and allows you to survive these first few months. It would be really good if that adjustment would kick in sometime soon.

In this somewhat altered state, I've also been subjecting my brain to small doses of Warren Ellis'snew forum site Die Puny Humans. It's all about tracking our sad progression toward the "Grim Meathook Future". Good reading, but not exactly heart warming. Having a new baby, it would be much nicer to believe that the world is moving towards an age of peace and enlightenment. Unfortunately, all you have to do is watch the evening news to see that things are likely to get a lot worse before they get better. But enough of my sunshine and daffodil ranting...

Because I think it's important to visually document this early part of my son's life, I'm considering buying a camcorder. I've found a good low-end Sony Digital8 camera (DCR-TRV280) that I can pick up for about $250. It would let me transfer videos to my computer so that I can edit them and burn them to DVD. Now I just need some freelance work so that I can pay for it. Even then, I'll probably need the money for daycare and other baby related expenses. Hrmm... I guess I'll probably stick to still photography for awhile.

Anyhoo... back to work.

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