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Job hunting in a city that you don't live in is a little daunting. I'm building lists of potential employers, firing off my resume to companies that aren't even hiring, and crossing my fingers that someone eventually reads it and gives me a chance.

My current job is keeping me very busy at the moment, and absorbing a lot of my energy. We are in the final days of a social studies project that must go to print by the end of the week. It's been difficult to come home and spend more time looking at a computer screen. No one seems to be posting job listing for the kind of stuff that I do on the big job boards. That means that I have to scour every individual publisher's corporate web site over and over until something materializes. Plus check 4 or 5 of the major job sites... plus the Milwaukee and Chicago on-line classifieds. It makes my head hurt, but it's got to be done.

Liz is getting closer and closer to finding a good job in Milwaukee. She's got another interview this week. When that happens, we'll be moving fairly quickly... Possibly by April 1st. We'll both be moving whether I have a job or not. Financially, we just can't afford two apartments in two cities. So me getting a job quickly is an imperative. Scary stuff.

Tonight I'm going home and forcing myself to spend the night in front of the computer, whether it makes me crazy or not. Because it's getting to the point that NOT doing it will make me crazy. I am bad at chaos and uncertainty. I know that this is an important and necessary move that we are making. I know that it is a GOOD move. It still makes me jittery and stressed out. I can't do much about that, but seeing me jittery stresses Liz out. Stressing out Lizzie stresses me out. It's a nasty cycle, based entirely on the fact that we love each other so much that we hate to see each other wig out about anything. I have no idea how to break out of it, other than forge ahead until we get resettled into our new and exciting life together.

I apologize for subjecting you all to my little stress party. Please don't take it too seriously. I tend to vent in this blog more than I rejoice, so you aren't seeing all the good and happy things that light up my world on a daily basis. Writing has always been a good way to purge my frustrations, and unfortunately this seems to be where I occasionally purge. I'll try to include some of the good stuff occasionally too.


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